What do I do, how to I let her down?

Well she called, but called at 10:00 and I was already asleep. She said okay, I’ll talk to you tomorrow night. She sounded like she was in a pretty good mood.

I waited for her to call yesterday, did not ride my Peloton thinking she would call while I was riding … again. Waited until after 7:15 pm, past my bed time and finally went to bed. She called at 8:30 because she was waiting for me to call her. To make a long story short she wants 400.00 to get the trailer they purchased together entirely in her name and then she want 3700.00 to pay the lawyer for her divorce. 3700.00 up front and then payments for anything above that. Well, what the heck to you think I’m going to say to that. “I could not give you 200.00 last weekend what the hell makes you think I can give you 4100.00 right now?” If she hadn’t taken me for about 6000.00 over the last 5 months I might have thought about it but as it is now I do not have that kind of money. I will have to save for it which means she can’t ask for anything until I have it and Christmas will be a no go this year.

Since he is fighting this Divorce I think my roll in paying Andy’s debt to him should be over, what to you all think?

I’m going to be letting her down in her eyes but that is the way it has to be. Please let her forgive me.

Talk to me tonight

Angie sent me a message about talking to me tonight. I wonder about what, we will see. It is why I have not posted today because I am curious about what she wants or does not want anymore. I guess I’ll tell you tomorrow. It’s also why I took today off.

The Holiday weekend started off good but…

The long holiday weekend started off great. I had two great workout sessions on my Peloton Friday, a 30 minute and 45 minute both with Hanna. I decided to order some Red Robin on Saturday and settled in for a great 4 days. I slept late every day, at lease till 7:00am and by Sunday was in the groove to start some coding and getting caught up in some classes and then…..

Angie called and her dad passed away Sunday morning July 2, 2017. I could tell she could not talk and just wanted me to know so I wasn’t shocked by seeing anything on Facebook. He had a massive heart attack in the morning, I don’t know anything more than that. I felt very bad for her, I know she was very close to her dad and that he would do anything for her. He bailed her out of messes multiple times and because of this I’m sure she is quite scared as well. To make things worse she sends me a message telling me she can’t talk but can she have 1800.00 or 900.00 to bury her dad. Now I’m not sure which she wanted because she asked for both but I found it odd she would ask me for that kind of money for that and not talk to me about it made it even worse. All I could think about was if he was with her and that is why she could not talk and at the same time he was there she is asking me for money. She has three brothers and her dad was retired from The Boeing Co. which means he has life insurance to cover things like this. The fact he may have been there while she is asking me just made it worse. I feel very bad for her but I’m afraid this may affect our/my plans for us.

I spent Monday and Tuesday coding in CSharp trying to recreate a tic tac toe game from a book I am reading. I have already done this from a Udemy class and this book is taking a different approach and I am taking a completely different one using CSharp.

I found out Saturday I was correct, she was with him while she was texting me for money and I’m not really sure how I feel about that. With that in mind a was a bit mean to her, calling her a user, using me for the last 20+ years. The fact that her fathers passing has affected me more than she knows is no excuse for the what I said, in a way she has used me but I have also let her as she knows I will try and do or give her whatever she asks for. I hope she forgives me for what that statement.

My heart goes out to you

I received a phone call from Angie yesterday morning (Sunday July 2nd). She wanted to let me know that her dad died earlier that morning and not to expect to talk to her.  I know how close she was to her dad and how she depended on him when she needed anything. I pray that she keeps it together and weathers this storm. I’m sure she will be ok, it still hurts to know she is hurting.

Monday Ramblings

I sent Angie 400.00 last Saturday for Fathers day, cable/internet, gas money and any other things she might need/want like smokes. What did she do? She spent the whole wad on baby stuff. I told her what the money was for and she wined about me not tell her that and she is the only one that gives a shit about the baby etc.. Wednesday she sends me a copy of her internet/cable bill which is fine but due that day. I asked her when did that come and her response was I don’t know, I just checked my mail because you said something about it. I used to be like that about my bills quite a few years ago and have now build a pretty good credit rating now. I told her just because you have money does not mean you have to spend it (that pissed her off).

Angie sent me a picture of her new grand daughter, what a cutie but then went on the say she could not be there when she was born because I was bitching about her spending money and she didn’t have the gas money to get there. I get where she is coming from because I did bitch about the spending a little but also apologized for not being to fair to her because of her situation and I’ll quit bitching, let her finish up the six months and go from there but I’ll still get blamed for her not being at the baby’s birth for the rest of our lives together.

I’m going through one of Udemy’s classes on Intermediate CSharp with Mosh to brush up on some things that have turned a little rusty. Having discovered this when finishing up the Python course and trying to convert the last two lessons into CSharp. I plain forgot how to do some things.

I have two classes purchased, one is a massive VBA course and the other a massive Python course. I think with these languages under my belt (CSharp, VBA and Python) I will have a very well rounded coding vocabulary.

I was wrong about liking when Angie is quiet

The last statement I made last week about Angie is the fact she has been quiet and that means she doesn’t cost me as much money. Well the fact of the matter is I don’t like it when she doesn’t talk. She said she is really busy but so am I and I still find the time to at least say good morning.

What did piss me off this weekend was the fact I still have to wait six freaking months even though she said if I helped with the rent it would not be six months. I guess that was 1) a lie or 2) she misspoke. One thing I do know is I did not misunderstand. I’ll give her her six months, remain quiet, save my money but after that the divorce must happen or the rent will stop.

I am taking Mosh’s intermediate C# class again and enjoy it as much this time as I did the last time.

Another Udemy Class Complete

I finished the Python Bible class from Udemy this last week and now am back onto a VBA class. This will be a little difficult because the instructor is very hard to understand. Each of the lectures seem to be around 12 minutes long and there are over 200 of them but the report automation portion I am really looking forward to.

I have found a new favorite company which will challenge my exercise and diet. The company is Grubhub. They pick up and deliver food to your doorstep from many restaurants that don’t normally deliver like one of my favorites, Red Robin and I took advantage of it this last weekend. I also tried a new Chinese delivery and a restaurant I have always wanted to try, On the Border. The Chinese restaurant was pretty dang good and I got 3 10.00 coupons from them but On the Border wasn’t as good as I thought (the chips and dip were though). This can really destroy my diet if I don’t watch out though. One new restaurant per weekend, I think that will work.

Angie is doing good but being really quiet right now which I like. She is cheaper that way 🙂

The first month

Angie has been in her apartment for a month as of Thursday of this week and I am finding her attitude much nicer to deal with. If I can’t send her money right when she wants it she does not cop an attitude, she just says ok and works with it. No yelling or anything. Even when Andy wanted another 500.00 last week, I said no and was met with a nice and calm response. At the same time I am making sure I can put aside extra money for savings each week that she will have no idea about. This little stash will help me work through things as Christmas, birthdays and just keeping a little cash on the side for emergencies which she does not believe in doing. She will thank me in the end when we can pay for presents that she could never do before.

Very nice weekend

We have auditors coming into work starting Monday morning which will make this week a bit hectic but I have had to deal with them before and can do it again. Looking forward to a great week!

Concentrate on other areas now

Now that things seem to be going really well now I can start concentrating on Blender and coding again. While trying to work things out with Angie I started a new course in Python programing. This instructor is quite good and at the same time I am converting each lesson in the Python course into an equivalent C# program an so far so good. It helps a lot keeping up with C# skills and a the same time learning Python. What I don’t understand while doing this exercise is why people who program primarily in one language don’t like another. C# is a strongly typed language using curly brackets and other special types of syntax in the code but Python is not strongly typed and used white space and indentation where C# would use curly brackets. I think partially because of this Python is at time easier to read as well as shorter line count wise. I have also decided to create the same examples in VBA as well. Having those three languages under by belt (plus a smattering of SQL) could make me a more rounded programmer regardless of what I wanted to work in be it Blender, Excel addins or a C# application for my windows computer or phone.

My mood was fantastic this weekend, she called four times, twice on Saturday and twice on Sunday.

This is going to be a fantastic week!

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