After I got laid off on June 22nd, I took a couple of weeks off to relax and think about what was going on and that might have been a mistake. After that, I spent quite some time every day, looking for work as a contractor. After a few months, I started getting really depressed because I thought I would be able to find a job very quickly. That did not happen.

That is when I started drinking a lot and started to get very sick. I did not understand how sick I was getting until I found a job in Wichita, Kansas and Carrie and I headed out there for a flight. I was very weak and could hardly walk through the airport in Dallas. We had to take a ride on a motorized cart for handicap people and I’ve never had to do that before.

After we got into Wichita, we found our hotel. it was a pretty run-down mess of a hotel. We stayed there a few days until Carrie in her driving around while I was at work found a Hampton Inn in Dery, Kansas, which was very nice. they gave us a discount for me working at Spirit Aerosystems.

At this time, I was still drinking a lot. I was still getting weaker, weaker and weaker. I went to work and was able to get my Id. My badge and everything taking care of for starting work. And ended up starting work in one building. But then a couple days later, I had to transfer to another building, which is actually much better than where I was, and it took me a long time to walk over there because I had to keep stopping because I was so weak.

After a few days at the new building, I had to start a class for SAP which I know like the back of my hand but had been two years since I used it at Spirit. I had to go through a two-week class, which was very nice. It was very fun, and I enjoyed it, but getting to work and coming home was an ordeal every day, I ended up missing the last day of class because I was so sick.

I’m going to fast forward a couple of days because I was in the hotel, just sitting around ordering food, not eating the food. It started rotting in the refrigerator. It was a horrible mess. at one point in time, I had ordered something from a restaurant. it was a milkshake; I believe spilled all over the floor. I just left it lying there because I could not get the energy up to clean it up. Carrie kept calling and kept getting very, very worried about me. I kept ignoring her. Ignored my sisters until a point in time came that I was watching TV in the morning. I stood up to lay down in bed.

  I fell down. I was too weak, to even get up at this point in time is when I thought I was going to die. There were a couple times where I made appointments to urgent care. I didn’t go because I was too weak to walk downstairs to get a lift to go to the urgent care. But on that day, when I fell down and I could not get up like I said, I thought that I was going to die right there. I started screaming for help and nobody could hear me. That is when I got very scared. I was not able to get the phone to work.   when I finally did get it to work, i called the front desk. they did not answer the phone and when I hit the button for reservations, then they answered the phone. I was able to tell her what was going on that I was on the floor. I was naked. A very big man. They need to get some big people up to help me. She got on the phone right away and called 911. They came in and picked me up within probably fifteen or twenty minutes. Then I headed off to the hospital.

After I arrived at the hospital, I will have to add this that the ambulance EMT’s were absolutely wonderful. They were great. Asked me where I wanted to go. Said I wanted to go to the best hospital around and they took me directly there. After I got to the hospital, that’s a different story because I hear different things. I was told by Carrie that I was I was delirious. When I got to the hospital, I was not delirious. Everything very, very clearly. I do not think I was delirious, I told them my name, told them my birth date. All of them where I had told them what day it was. I don’t know why they said I was delirious.

 But then the nurse came in and told me that Carrie was flying down from the Seattle. I was not supposed to know that. I didn’t know I was not supposed to know until the next day. When Carrie got there, I was not to know that and I really appreciated that very much.